Response to Moving Past Correction
The following is the link to the essay, "Moving Past Correction" by kaylee, below is my response to it.
Greetings, Mistress, When I read this essay, I thought the feel of it sounded very familiar, so I went to the Gorean voice and I realized that I rather thought it was the same slave and yes, writing on the same thing so it would sound familiar. After I read the one from the Gorean voice, I was moved to see if there was one on Gor on Earth as well, thus, I found what I found. I thought about how I tend to beat up on myself when I have been told that I've been displeasing, that I've been a disappointment. I was always one of those people that apologized for apologizing so much. While this habit has been something that has been hard for me to try to break, I have been working on that, as I've been working on taking my punishment and moving forward and trying to do better. This is something that is HARD to do, but I -must- put forth great effort in it. When both you and Master Zedojhen let it be known your disappointment in me, I tried to remember that if both of you didn't care, then you wouldn't have bothered to let me know. Each of you told me your thoughts and instead of giving me additional orders, you put it back in my hands to allow me to deal with it, and now you both are watching. It would have been easy for me to wallow in self pity, to give up, to continually damn myself for mistakes and say I can't do it. Yes, that would have been easier, but it wouldn't have been true to what's in me and the path that I desire to take. So, I have tried my best to continue on the path and do better. Master Zed has been distant to me in pm since I displeased him, I'm fully aware of this. There is a limited amount that can be done from a distance in regards to punishment. I don't know if it's punishment, I do know however it is what pleases him. I can only control the fact that I strive to do better, to learn from my mistakes and failures and move on hoping to be found pleasing the next time and every time. This is has been something that I've been working on, acceptance, and instead of saying, you didn't punish me enough so I'm going to punish myself, I'm moving forward. I thank you, Mistress for letting me know that I disappointed you, and I thank Master Zedjohn as well. I will strive everyday to learn from my mistakes and to be someone that is found pleasing. Wishing you well, In service ancilla  Home  Gor My life Essays Self Examination Quotes Music Resources Credits Links Email Other Stuff
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