Response to Peeling Back the Layers
The following is the link to the essay, "Peeling Back the Layers" by kaylee, below is my response to it.
Greetings, Mistress, Reading this particular essay at this time did not come about by accident I believe. When I search for an essay, I look at the titles and something always grabs at me; today this one did. More than likely it is because of my fear of walling myself up while going through these difficult times in my life. These layers, each of them is something that I know you and Master Zed have pushed me to expose. I guess in some ways you know that peeling them off too quickly, pushing to hard would cause me to retreat as she mentions in this essay. So, patience has been afforded to me. In past conversations, I have wondered why I reveal some things about myself and with reading this piece, it now helps me understand why. It is because I desire to be mastered and to give all that I am. It doesn't mean that I do not stumble in doing it, but subconsciously, I do want to, so I reveal those parts of me to allow the Free it is given to, to know me better, thus be able to have me please them better and deal with what is inside me as it pleases them. Slowly, but surely, my walls come down and yes, I am terrified that in the wrong hands they can do me harm, but in the right hands...the good that can be done is astronomical, liberating and necessary for me to continue on this path. Trust is something that is earned, so it is a little hard to be open to so many Free, but I am trying to set down my pride and show what I am. Ultimately I am the one who has to live with myself and I am the one that has to be able to accept everything about myself. Not just the good, but the bad also. I don't want to simulate slavery, nor do I want to wear a mask of who I am for the rest of my life. It is a struggle, but I have a feeling that the price paid will be well worth it. Wishing you well, In service, ancilla  Home  Gor My life Essays Self Examination Quotes Music Resources Credits Links Email Other Stuff
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